choices

My Mind Wanders As I Wonder

MY MIND WANDERS AS I WONDER

Looking back
I wonder if I
should have done
differently
any of the things that brought
me here, to today.

Mistakes were
made, that is for sure.
But I learned
from them, then.
Would it have just taken more
time to learn lessons?

Decisions
were made with the best
intentions
in mind. Yet,
were they the right decisions?
They were, at the time.

But if I’d
made other choices,
perhaps I’d
have become
a wife and mom, like I’d hoped
to be. Just maybe?

Happiness
eludes me most days.
I wonder
if I could
have done things differently to
change that about me.

Or would my
melancholy ways
have always
pervaded
my days, leaving me in the
same place, regardless?

Looking back
(I have decided),
is the best
way to learn
how to move forward, because
I can’t change the past.

2015-04-27
Paula Wanken

Shared at Poetic Asides for PAD 2015 – Day 27: Looking Back

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Olivia And The Epiphany


OLIVIA AND THE EPIPHANY

Olivia has always lived
in the cottage by the sea,
but there had once been a time
she questioned: should she leave?

After the horrible storm,
then the deaths of her parents,
moving closer to family
was an idea that had merit.

All of the responsibilities
would not on her shoulders, fall;
in town she would have friends
and neighbors on whom to call.

She traveled to the city
for extended periods of time;
after each visit she’d return
to be welcomed by the sublime.

As Olivia pondered it all,
she found no mystery;
just a series of questions
leading to an epiphany.

Her decision to live alone
in the cottage by the sea,
was never really up to her,
it was always meant to be.

2013-05-22
P. Wanken

Written for We Write Poems #158: Playing Sherlock (Part 5 in Who is your Protaganist?) For PART ONE, See “Olivia And The Ordinary.” Posted for day 81 in 100 Days of Spring – 2013.

Living In The Now

 

LIVING IN THE NOW

The
path
I have
walked hasn’t
always been easy,
and I haven’t always made the
best choices along
the way. Yet,
I’ve no
re-
grets.

2013-03-21
P. Wanken

Written for Poetic Bloomings Prompt #84 (Memoir Project – Part #19): Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda and Poetic Asides prompt #215: Walk.