Contrary Mind

CONTRARY MIND

spinning
spiraling
down, down, down
into the depths of darkness
my mind tells me
I am beyond hope
nothing can help
I should be able to manage
on my own
I do not need that little pill

at the bottom
I resign

spinning
spiraling
onward and upward
into another blue sky day
my mind tells me
I am just fine
I don’t need any help
I can manage
on my own
I don’t need that little pill

at the top
I resist

spinning
spiraling
down
down
down

again

2011-10-25
P. Wanken

Written for Poetic Bloomings prompt to write a “life’s a little weird” poem. To me…depression is weird, with a mind of its own.

8 comments

    1. Thanks, Laurie…love you, too! 🙂

      Thankfully, this poem isn’t describing where life is for me right now! …in the midst of that cycle, one cannot SEE that cycle.

      As always, I appreciate your encouragement and support!

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  1. First, you take a dark subject and make the reader feel not only the dizzying drop caused by depression, but the breathtaking ascent felt after taking a pill. This is not easy to do, but you do it. Just reading “spinning, spiraling” gives me a queasy feeling.

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    1. Thank you for the feedback, Mike…

      I wish the “breathtaking ascent” was as instant as coming after taking the medication…it’s actually a bit more of a crawl. As if out of a pit. Hmm….should have gone that direction with my word choices. But I liked the repetition from one end of the spectrum to the other.

      Again….thank you, as always, Bro.

      ~P.

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  2. Depression is like a carnival ride isn’t it? I hadn’t seen it in that light. Having gone through the process you describe, I like the description. It works.

    margo

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    1. Thanks for the feedback. Hadn’t really thought of it as a carnival ride. More of a dizzying, sickening feeling…which I suppose IS what a carnival ride is like for most.

      ~Paula

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